After I started this blog, I was thinking I was on my road to become a profesional photographer. Stats of the blog were blooming, I had many visitors, many views and I started to think I was pretty good.
I am afraid it was even more(if there is something ‘even more’).
I started to go on fields, I had many walks and my database of photos was growing, and growing, and really growing…
Many times I was on a field, hidden in a bush and my heart was beating so fast only thinking how good my pictures were and how important was that SD Card inside my camera. I was dreaming how people will like them and press that L-button,and how my stats will bloom, again, day after day.
Likes? Shares? Pro? Good photos? Great photographer?
WAKE UP, Cornel!
And I got depressed after I woke up.
I was not a pro, my gear was under the standards, my vision was missing, my skills were lacking.
I was not taking good photos. Many times Auto was my first mode. I didn’t know about rules (‘who needs rules nowadays!?’ I was saying to myself…).
I didn’t received so many likes.
I wasn’t taking photos I liked. I tried to copy photos of Pro Photographers who were receiving thousands of likes and many appreciations.
I was sad only thinking how bad photos I take, how stupid I am and so on.
But after a while I understood: the most important thing is to take photos as well as you can, doing all your efforts, and following your own vision.
And so I learned and discovered many things.
I discovered how nice it is to take photos of your family when they are still with you, not only trying to capture wildlife and say no to family photos.
I was amazed of taking photos of my nephews laughing and playing. It was thrilling to take them photos and it was even more exciting to see them together gathered in front of my computer.
I discovered how some photos taken in various moments can build new human relationships .
I discovered how well you feel when you get just a blurred photo of a bird after waiting for hours, staying in mud and enduring all the laughs of neighbours, friends, people who thought I was just wasting my time for nothing.
Last two years I have taken photos of all sort of things, from birds to fences, from doors to my dogs’ tails, from roads to trees around houses, from mice to my neighbours, and so on. And many times I thought I was taking photos like a crazy man. And all this until a while ago when I was far away from home for several months, and guess what helped me? Yes, my huge database full of all sorts of photos.
Now I am reluctant about sharing my photos with others. I see my photos, I try to write a post here but I delete it after a short while because I think it is unworthy to be read and seen by other people. But I would like to post more even if my photos will be blurred, even if here you’ll find photos of fences and tails.