If you don’t mind, I would like to share with you some thoughts.
First one: you are enough now. If quality comes as something natural to your efforts, I think it is just perfect. But if you are concerned all the time to get better, to take better photos… you might forget living and enjoying all those beautiful moments when you are into the fields, into the woods or other very beautiful place.
Second one: be glad for all your results. I know there are thousands and maybe thousands of thousands of people who take greater photos that you. So what? You see and admire their photos. But, are they really happy during the process? I suppose some of them are not. Why? Because all the time they try to be different, they try to be better, they try to defeat their concurrence, they put their lives into danger for all sort of photos. For what? For a perfect exposure? For a very, very sharp photo? For a new point of view?
I know, we all want better photos, but I suppose greatness comes as a bonus to your joy. Greatness isn’t a goal, greatness is just an effect of your mood, your way of seeing and doing things. You are better today than yesterday. And if you see your imperfections and your lacks, this means to me that now you are more aware, more attentive to yourself. Awareness don’t come easy. It is a gift. It is a light.
Third one. It is not about the gear. Yes, good gear helps a lot, even more than we can imagine, but if you cannot afford to upgrade, then be glad for what you have. Yes, you will lose some opportunities. Yes, your photos won’t have the best quality but still, your experience and your feelings are documented by your photos. No one else will ever feel like you when you will see every single photo you have taken.
Now, after all, it is all up to you and it is none of my business to tell you all these.
Do you want a better camera? Great. You will find a way and you will have it. But don’t forget to tell me after you buy it if you are happier.
Some years ago I wanted so hard to capture the things as I saw them but after a long time I understood it is more important to attend to myself, to observe things around me, other beings around me and just be happy and grateful.
I end this here saying: enjoy your time, enjoy your life.
p.s. These are the words of an amateur photographer, and they might not have any value at all because there is a huge difference between the mind of an amateur and the mind of a pro photographer.